'My whole world exploded': Jennifer Lopez breaks silence on divorce from Ben Affleck
Jennifer Lopez is getting real about her life.
In a conversation with comedian Nikki Glaser for Interview magazine, Lopez talked about the past year of her life, which included the cancellation of her planned concert tour and the end of her marriage to Ben Affleck.
Glaser and Lopez began their chat discussing Lopez playing Judy Robles in the film Unstoppable. Robles is the mother of athlete Anthony Robles, who was born with one leg and went on to become an accomplished wrestler.
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Jennifer Lopez, pictured here in February with Ben Affleck, has broken her silence on their split. Mario Anzuoni/Reuters via CNN Newsource
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Glaser tied Lopez's preparation for the role into the star's "struggle with low self-esteem."
"My whole life has been proving my enoughness," Lopez said.
"Dealing with feeling like you're enough, from when you're very young, is something that you don't figure out for a long time, because you're not looking at yourself like that," she continued.
"Something is driving you and your decisions and you don't know why."
I did all the work and look at where I am, and then it was like my whole f---ing world exploded.
Lopez said some of that motivation stemmed from childhood feelings of "being ignored, being a middle child, having a very outgoing mom and a dad who worked all day and worked all night and feeling like you weren't important, like you weren't a priority."
"That embeds in you, and I think your parents are doing the best they can. Even now being a parent, I have much more empathy for what they've been through," she said.
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"I love my parents, but I do see the effect of who they were and how they were raised, on me," she continued.
"You don't even really know until those things start manifesting in your actual adult relationships."
The conversation then turned to her past few months, which have not been the easiest for Lopez.
Working on the movie as well as her This Is Me…Now album, short film and accompanying documentary had Lopez feeling like "…whoa, I got here."
"I'm good," she said. "I did all the work and look at where I am, and then it was like my whole f---ing world exploded."
Her highly publicised relationship with Affleck, which involved them reuniting decades after their first engagement ended, got even more attention in August, when Lopez filed for divorce.
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Lopez, pictured here in September, is next starring in Unstoppable. Michael Buckner/Variety/Getty Images
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She is now looking ahead, not behind, it seems.
"Now I'm excited, when you say you're just going to be on your own," Lopez said. "Yes, I'm not looking for anybody, because everything that I've done over the past 25, 30 years, being in these different challenging situations, what can I f---ng do when it's just me flying on my own."
"What if I'm just free?" she added.
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