'I didn't used to have a gender preference, but then I saw the Barbie movie'

The Barbie movie truly gives you all the feels. It's funny, it's stunning and it's surprisingly very emotional.

Like many other fans of the flick, the emotion for me stemmed from some powerful scenes that make you deeply think about who you are as a person.

But one feeling that crept up on me as the credits rolled through at the end, was that of fear.

Fear that as a mum of two boys I'll never get to experience the incredible bond between a mother and her daughter.

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Now yes, I am lucky enough to have an amazing mum. So I have in some capacity enjoyed that bond as the daughter in the relationship.

But I haven't yet (I say yet because the door isn't closed in my baby-making chapter) become the mother of a daughter.

And that seems to be a powerful thing.

Before having my first son Noah, I never really had a strong preference for a particular gender. I didn't mind what popped out at the end of those excruciating contractions.

And to be honest, a gender preference didn't even seem to come through after his birth.

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When I found out I was having a second boy, I was actually pretty excited. Two little boys, brothers, a boy mum – how fun this will be I thought.

And it has been. It's been incredible seeing their brotherly bond form and even dealing with the cheekiness of them both.

Two boys equals lots of energy and screaming 'don't touch your brother' multiple times a day.

But walking out of the Barbie movie last week, it was the first time I felt any sense of 'missing out' when it came to not having a daughter.

Watching the film as a woman gives you a strong sense of pride. There is a real 'girls run the world' kind of theme throughout it.

It makes you proud to be a woman and rethink your potential as one. A real uplift to your spirit.

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It's a feeling I can only imagine would be an honour nurturing in a young girl. Raising her to be proud of herself, see her potential and kick her goals.

So I can now admit that I am a little sad I may not have the chance to do that.

If I am lucky enough to have another child, of course I will be grateful whether it is a boy or girl.

But it would be damn nice to have a daughter I can share that special bond with that only us women can understand. A sense of camaraderie and understanding.

So my fingers and toes will now remain crossed from now until the moment (if it happens) comes to finding out. Wish me luck gals!